grandma's funeral is today.
i still can't believe she's not here.  i keep telling myself that she's not here...cause everytime i feel sad about it, i want to call her and talk to her.  everytime i needed someone to talk to, my grandma was there.  her response/solution to everything was "christy, pray".  grandma would cry with me when i needed to cry.  she's the one i turned to when shane left.  i miss her stories.  i miss her smell.  i miss a lot of things.
i know she's at peace now, but how do i say goodbye? how do i let go of someone so important? i know i'm being selfish, but i'm so sad.  all i want is to talk to my grandma and have her tell me that it's all going to be ok.  but she's not there. i don't have my grandma to talk to anymore, and i feel like there's an empty part of me now that she's gone.
how do you let go?